i needa talk abit about my marathon so next year if i do it again i can read this and be reminded how it went.. soo ai ya i go watch korean show first.. back. i think mark richmond is quite a lousy sports games commentator leh.. but then again maybe he's the best singapore's got.. haha. so marathon day i couldn't sleep after 2:15 am so i tossed in bed till about 230 am and i just woke up, went to shower, eat bread, wasted time until 4 plus then went to the race.. after my mom dropped us, my dad made me deposit our bags. then we went to pee in the bushes opp suntec city. then we went to the start line... we were standing at the sub 4hr30 line i think.. thennn the race started, and immediately i felt like peeing. like crazy right i just peeed. so anw when i reached 1km it was about 6 mins plus so i got a shock and started running faster until i caught up with my dad around 4 km, who promptly told me to slow down which i did.. at 5km it was 30 mins and i walked for 5 mins.. when i started running after that 5 mins i felt so fresh again and i saw some pple peeing at the side so i went to pee with them and when i turned around 2 girls were standing there waiting to use the mobile toilets but whatever so i went on running.. i even washed my hands after peeing ok, with the water from the drinks stations. then okk everything went fairly ok.. running 30mins, walking 5 mins.. i did 16km in 1hr35min, 28km mark i was 2hr50mins, which was almost 1 km ahead of my target.. anw, things started going downhill from 30km onwards.. my muscles started becoming tight and heavy.. this is probably due to lack of mileage training.. i think in my running training, i need to be doing much more mileage like maybe 35-40km a week kinda thing.. soo i really hit the wall, started running, then couldn't take it, walk more, running, walking.. and it became more walking than running.. my hope of hitting 4:30 was fading fast and soon it became clear i couldn't make it.. so i just struggled all the way to the end and did 4:46mins.. i guess i would have been fairly ok with it, but then i'm sad i didn't hit 4:30 and bring home junxu for the Lye family hahaha sorry aunty and uncle.. so things to remember if i do this again:

1)mileage training is very impt so my leg muscles don't die

2)the power gel makes my throat feel funny, maybe i shouldn't take it

3)don't drink too much water before the race starts

4)just use the bag deposit next time

5)wear proper socks

6)tape my feet

i guess that's about it...

hopefully i get inspired to do this again next year... i just wished i had a training buddy maybe i should train with my dad.. He did 3hr55mins by the way i think he was like 4th in his age group.

so after the marathon i went for camp... i didn't play any games at all sadly.. i should have just pon sch on monday. anw, the sessions were good. the first one on sunday night, i felt like there could be more development from mike pilavacchi.. zephaniah 3:17 right. I wished there was more explanation into the context, under what historical circumstances did God give this verse, etc etc, more application.. However, maybe that might bore the youths.. all i can say is that the way he does it really engages the youth and speaks to their hearts so that's great.. then i went to sch on monday, and got worried about ponning, but whatever, i left halfway and came for camp.. then erm yeah had to rush to worship lead.. hmmm how did i feel about the worship.. well all i can say is that i feel so inadequate leading up there, it was a bit scary too given that there were so many people. add on the fact that i was not like fully immersed in the camp kinda thing and like i arrived there at 645pm and immediately had to rehearse etc so rushed and everything but i hope the worship helped people look to God, give Him praise and glory.. worship leading is not easy and i'm definitely still learning so much.. i feel most inadequate in the talking part, like getting people hyped up and everything but i also think that if youths always had to be hyped up to worship God then that would be sad.. but then again doesn't mean i be passive and not say a single thing but then like ya.. i must learn to lead with the anointing of Holy Spirit and sensitivity of how the Spirit is moving. then ok that session was great, i thought the session on prophecy was excellent.. definitely gave me a lot of insight into the gift of prophecy, a topic i've always sort of sidestepped in my christian walk i think.. then yaa spent the night not doing much, talking to ryan mostly then went to my room shower and sleep and woke up late with alex and kenneth hahaha. honestly i had a "get thru the camp" kinda attitude sometimes, but i must say i've come away from it very blessed, and wanting to know God in a deeper and more personal way....

in my QT today, i read in jeremiah 34:16-17 that the people in israel/judah promised God to free the slaves, then when things became better, they went back on their word and took back the slaves to be their slaves.. like they went back on their word to God. God said that profaned His name. I think that tells me that God remembers the covenants with have with him, the so called commitments we make to him.. i guess it's like singing Lord i offer my life to you sincerely, then the next moment going after the things of the world, putting God aside. it's kinda like profaning the name of God. so the lesson is to be singleminded in christ(Jer 32:39), commit ourselves to Him and stay committed. commitment may not be adequate. i think it should be surrender ourselves to Him and stay surrendered. Have you surrendered sth to God? maybe the camp has touched you in a deep way? Don't forget about it the next moment ok.. continue to grow in the Word and hunger and delight in Him..