This is a porsche carrera (am i spelling this right?) 911 GT2. I dunno what the GT2 means but wow i like the porsche carrera.

today, i was looking at my mother and saw that she has quite a bit of white hair growing. I felt a little sad cos she used to have a whole head of black hair. I dunno whether it's a natural ageing process or whether it's cos she's been so flustered and been through so many tough times over the years. Anyway, i realised my parents are getting older. My dad is 55 this year and my mom is 49. Next year my dad would be 56 and that would like be closer to 60 which in my impression is kinda like a grandparent age. cos i remembered when i was young, my grandparents were 60 something. This made me realise that

MAN, we are all growing older. when i was primary 5, being 21 was like eternity for me. like i thought it would take forever to get there. and like boom here i am and i'm 21. and if i think about it, my parents are reaching retiring age soon, meaning, me and my sisters are adults. like seriously real adults. not the kind when you're in sec 4 and your form teacher says in this irritating voice," you all are adults now if you want me to treat you like adults you all better behave like adults." But like real adults, who take care of themselves, take care of their family affairs, etc etc. i realise i'm still depending a lot on my parents, such as financially and actually everything else. like my house. and i dunno. then this thought came to me that, i should try to start assuming the role of an adult in the house. Like if there is something that needs to be repaired, i should try to do it or arrange for someone to come over and do it. you know stuff like that, take a little of that burden of my parents. after all these years i should have some common sense as to how to do such stuff. in other countries people start getting married when they're like what 18, 19?

That was kinda random. I hate growing up. When we were young, we all wanna grow older. all i could think about when i was 13 was to get to 16, 17. and now at 21, you realise the golden years were from 1-20. i'm sure when i'm 30, i'd think the golden years are from 1-29. the thing is, i think everything in singapore moves so fast. the year passes so fast. in secondary sch. it was always preparing for the next common test, next whatever. in JC, it was the common tests as well, working towards the holiday. when you go army, it's waiting for the weekends. to everyone in singapore, time is a luxury they don't have. that's why time passes by so fast here.

That's why the song stop this train by john mayer is so apt.

I seriously wish this train would just stop for awhile. everything is just moving so so fast.

I know, it won't be long before i'm saying,"wow i'm 30, that was fast. " "wow i'm 60, everything passed by so fast."

I guess i just hope that when i'm saying all that, i'd have my good friends around me who heard me say "wow i'm 21 that was fast". and we would laugh and reminisce and cherish good times. and make more good times. haha i sound like an old man.

So when you're young, SKATE/SNOW/SURF ! i personally would be planning to do some of that hopefully.. maybe the skate not really la my skateboard ambitions kinda died cos i can't freaking ollie after trying so long.