just sent off michelle and kai xin.. and saw lots of air stewardess-es and i thought to myself wow what an exciting career.. (fine ok i didn't think to myself, i told jeremy that). like you keep flying around the world, and get to wear nice clothes and feel shiok... whole day go airport which is a nice place...

But anyway, i've been thinking about this for quite long.. you've heard of the quote 'live each day like it's your last day' or sth like that... i think if i live tmr like it's my last day, i won't go to school to study for my CAs, i'll hurry up take a flight to bali, learn surfing for like 3 hours, fly back quick, have a nice meal with my close friends, then hurry up call up the girl that i'm having a crush on, tell her that she's really special and that i like her etc etc and that i wish her happiness and that the best thing that happened to me was being able to like just know her and talk to her, then i'd like call up my good friends tell them to be good, then i'll give away all my stuff to people.. then yeahh that's probably what i'll do. okk maybe minus the bali part cos not enough time. maybe i'll go play soccer instead of surfing.
so if i do that tmr. and i don't die. then on wednesday, i dunno whether i'll go for bible study at night if it were my last day.. i definitely won't study for CAs since i won't live till then. so i'll maybe i'll go to a very expensive restaurant again with cool friends, then maybe do silly things, like call up the girl i've a crush on again and tell her i love her, maybe play a song on the guitar for her. i think i'll also look through old photos and reminisce.. call up good and long lost friends. give away my money to friends also i think.. and yaa maybe like speed on the roads, try to enjoy some scenery in singapore, Mount faber?? reservoirs?? .. then yeah... so if i do that on wed, and i dont' die.. and it carries on....... I'LL BE SERIOUSLY SCREWING UP MY LIFE RIGHT.
if it carries all the way to end of march, i'll fail all my exams, be retained, broke, no belongings. My friends will be thinking what is wrong with me.. i'll probably have messed up that girl's life big time.. haha..

okk i will add on more thoughts to this when i think of it more..
and crap i really have a lot a lot a lot to studyyyy... Lord i can't do it on my own strength, I need your grace and mercy....