what i typed yesterday before falling asleep and leaving the computer on...

hello i'm in my room after a really long day, but thank God i got through it and now i'm in my room.. i was just talking to my friend from med sch today and we were sharing about each other's church life since we haven't talked for quite long and i realised there are sooo many things i wanna do! that i wanna accomplish in JYM.. in 2007, 1 thing i'm sure of is that my love for JYM has multiplied.. i know i really have a passion for each and every youth in JYM. in 2008, despite my busy schedule, due to tv and slacking around and bumming around and maybe studying, i really hope i can touch the lives of firstly my DG boys, and also the guys in my cell group and also some others who nobody really engages that much.. i don't wanna just think about it in my heart and be contented that i can think of such things, but i NEED to carry them out.. My patho CA is in less than 2 weeks and i NEED to study.


but more importantly, i need to seek God. after bacteriology, i was so worried that i'd do badly. i'm too lazy to tell u the details but yes it is worrying. I tell myself that i wanna leave it in the hands of God but then i still worry. it's hard isn't it.

but now as i reflect back, i realised that God spoke to me through specific incidents.


1, my friend telling me that there are so many people in africa suffering because they have no water and no food, and here i am whining and complaining that i wrongly said that enterococci is not part of the normal gut flora in my test.


2. bible study on wednesday, where despite the whole discussion about faith, and the power of our spoken word, the thing that really hit me was the sovereignty of our God. God is sovereign. Wow He is the God i worship and i've always been thinking for myself in this relationship with Him.

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3. Me hearing the phrase 'life isn't about exams' from a very overachieving friend of mine and that has sort of been like my mission statement in 2007 hehheh.

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ai ya i'm too lazy to write..

When I really consider God's sovereignty, (which i still have problems grasping with) my little worries and problems seem so trivial.. not that this gives me the license to not study hard. Col 3:23 and not that God doesn't care about the little problems in our lives. 1 Peter 5:7 But it just really gives me the right perspective in life.. yes that's what i really need...
i know i'm really really incoherent and i hope i can improve in writing out my thoughts. haha.. ok la i'm just getting my incoherent i shall stop here.